Life

The early morning view out my bedroom window. I love to watch the sunrise!

The older I get, the more I realize that life will never be perfect. If our number one desire is to serve God, or even if it is to serve ourselves, there is no escaping the inevitable difficulties that life presents. If we are serving God, the devil is sure to throw whatever snares in our path he is capable of. If we are serving ourselves, we just naturally make our own problems (with the assistance of the devil of course.) The difference between serving ourselves and serving God is that when difficulties arise, if we are serving God, we have the most powerful, most awesome, and most amazing Being on our side who is more than willing to help us fight the battle. What a wonderful assurance those of us who have given ourselves over to God have! What confidence we can possess with that knowledge. God is on our side and He will never leave us nor forsake us.

This assurance has been a source of great comfort and help to me in the recent past, as I have had to face some of the most trying experiences of my life. Jesus has been my help and my comfort, and God has been my strength and my shield through the trials and difficulties that have recently crossed my path. I praise Him for being constantly by my side, and for delivering me from the snares of the devil.

I had been feeling a great deal of concern for Isaiah spiritually. Apparently my concerns were valid, for he made some very wrong choices that wounded me and caused a great deal of pain and sorrow to me and to my family. Because of his actions, I had no choice but to say goodbye to him and to our relationship. It was definitely the most painful decision I have had to face in my life, but the answer was made very clear to me. The devil certainly has a way of trying to ensnare us and pull us down in our weakest areas. However, God revealed very clearly to me and my family what the wise choice was.

I believe that this experience has caused me to mature a great deal, and has also drawn me much closer to God. I believe He has also used this experience to strengthen me in areas of my life in which I have always been weak. I pray that Isaiah has learned as well and will repent.

My heart has been broken, but Jesus is with me. He is my comfort. My family has been so kind and have helped me through this whole difficult and painful time. I was wounded deeply in this relationship by actions that were committed and words that were spoken, but God is my refuge, my strength, and my healer.

I am back at school after an all too brief Christmas break. I have already been back a month, though it certainly does not seem that long. This is my last semester at this college. I will graduate in May. And then, Lord willing, I will go on to nursing school at last!

I spend my mornings in class and at work in the library. My afternoons and evenings are filled with babysitting, library work, study, study, and more study. I have a heavy work load, and I love it. I just hope I can do well in everything. I am certainly trying my best.

We'll see how I do in keeping up with my blog. No promises. But I will try to write a periodical update if I ever find something of interest to write about. I would definitely appreciate any of your prayers. I have been learning a lot of lessons the hard way. Pray that I would continue to put God first in my life, even if that means I have to make some very painful decisions.